Responsibilities... and things like that

I don't know what came over me recently but I suddenly developed this massive urge to buy a house. But that means a lot of things. And it's kind of scary, and kind of overwhelming, and kind of depressing at the same time. i have to be an adult... and make real decisions.... :'( so sad...

things that i've never thought of are suddenly being thrown at me like... mortgages! home improvement projects! life!! roommates!! the future!!!

it makes me scared. someone give me a book. a guide on how to be a real person-- on how to be an adult :-(

i also thought it would be a great idea to ditch my car and bike. that means i have to decide what kind of bike to get.... which means, what color will it be? how far will i ride it? what if it gets stolen!! what kind of lock do i need to get???

and then these little decisions snowball into massive massive amounts of agony because i cannot make simple decisions. i cannot make difficult decisions at all. somebody help me :-(

I want to go back to the days where you could play on the playground

Don't throw up, your world is spinning